Running Worries: Failure?
I'm all signed up for the Leesburg 20k on August 18th. And now I'm starting to worry that I will fail.
I did my long slow run today. 7.7 miles... slow miles... really slow. And at the end, I was TIRED and SPENT and DONE... and I had a blister on my foot (still trying to find the right socks). And all I thought as I finished was "how on earth will I be able to run nearly 5 more miles????" I just don't know. I mean, I have about 10 more weeks to train, but right now, it just seems sooooo hard. I should probably specify that I don't really have any doubts that I can finish the 20k. I'm sure I can (so long as I avoid injury), even if I have to stop running, I know I could walk however far to the end. But I'd like to actually finish in a "real" time. Not a fast time, I have no aspirations for that, but I just want to finish before they turn the clock off. That's the part I'm worried about. Plus I really, really want to run the whole thing. I have a feeling that if I don't manage that much I will be severely disappointed with myself. And at this point in the training process, I am really questioning whether or not my goal is attainable.
But I'll keep working on it. I keep reminding myself that I'm on track with my training, just because I couldn't fathom running 12.4 miles today doesn't mean I won't be able to do it in August. I think I was just thrown today because I ran at a slower pace than I expected. Bah.
I did my long slow run today. 7.7 miles... slow miles... really slow. And at the end, I was TIRED and SPENT and DONE... and I had a blister on my foot (still trying to find the right socks). And all I thought as I finished was "how on earth will I be able to run nearly 5 more miles????" I just don't know. I mean, I have about 10 more weeks to train, but right now, it just seems sooooo hard. I should probably specify that I don't really have any doubts that I can finish the 20k. I'm sure I can (so long as I avoid injury), even if I have to stop running, I know I could walk however far to the end. But I'd like to actually finish in a "real" time. Not a fast time, I have no aspirations for that, but I just want to finish before they turn the clock off. That's the part I'm worried about. Plus I really, really want to run the whole thing. I have a feeling that if I don't manage that much I will be severely disappointed with myself. And at this point in the training process, I am really questioning whether or not my goal is attainable.
But I'll keep working on it. I keep reminding myself that I'm on track with my training, just because I couldn't fathom running 12.4 miles today doesn't mean I won't be able to do it in August. I think I was just thrown today because I ran at a slower pace than I expected. Bah.
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