Continual State of Becoming

Several years ago, 2005 to be exact, I started this blog.  I had recently graduated from college, was starting my teaching career, had gotten married, moved out of my parent's home (for good).  It was at a time when I felt like my adult life was really beginning.  I was figuring out the working world, running a business, being a wife, taking care of a household, and attempting to stay in touch with the academic world that I loved so much.  So I started blogging about it.  When I first opened my blogger account I had to come up with a title for my blog...  I haven't ever changed it, it has always been "Continual State of Becoming." I took the name from a passage in the Aaron Copland book I was reading at the time "Music and Imagination." This is a very loose adaptation of what he was saying, but basically he talked about how music is a very transient thing...  You listen to it in a moment of time and you can't take in the whole work at once (like you can with a painting for instance), instead you hear one bit after another bit and so on... And while it goes on the overall effect develops... Therefore he says that music is always in a continual state of becoming.  At the time I just thought that was a cool idea about music, so would make a great title for me since I love music.  But now I really appreciate how that idea relates not only to my biggest passion, but also my life in general.  I am in a continual state of becoming.  Since I've started this blog I've gone from new wife, new piano teacher, to church musician, to grad student and librarian, to new mother and now mother of a little boy.  I've explored the mundane (how much I hate grocery shopping) to the slightly more important (art and music) and plenty in between.  And the whole time never really being just one of those things, but a development of all of them.  I'm really glad my nerdiness allowed me to stumble across Copland's idea, because I think it really does sum up the journey I go through in life...  It reminds me that I'm never done developing, I'm always changing, exploring different things, always becoming.